Living in a state of suspended animation, I’m unsure where exactly to direct my attention and energies from day to day.
I scan through daily news channels, blogs, online programs.
Talk to friends about how they are holding up, the challenges we’re facing, the unknowns.
I help my daughter with her online school work.
I organize those drawers I never did get to before.
I browse through old photo albums, with mixed feelings.
I sense into …. my dis-ease, unsettledness.
The relief I feel in a world slowed down, the dread that quickly follows.
How much I enjoy sleeping in.
How much I worry that without external constraints, I may just stay in bed all day.
Horrified at that thought. Secretly delighted, too.
Part of me seems to be waiting for the other shoe to drop … slightly on edge while feeling mostly just fine.
I watch the woodpeckers land on the bird feeder, grateful for the distraction from my thoughts.
Grateful for the reminder that life goes on in the natural world.
My mind scans through various possible apocalyptic situations and wondering if I have enough batteries in my house.
A scornful, dismissive inner voice tells me I’m blowing things out of proportion, feeding the drama.
Another voice counters – things are actually worse than they seem – it just hasn’t arrived at my personal doorstep yet.
The perpetual drip of propaganda, peacocking, posturing and double-speak erodes my spirit, leaves me raw and disoriented.
What I pay attention to matters. Somethings feed and nourish my soul. Others drain my life force. I pay attention to the difference.
I long to rest in the truth of whatever is real.
I don’t have answers “out there,” so I’ll take charge of what’s “in here.”
Grounding myself in internal truths, I set some intentions for this week, and commit to:
Making peace with suffering, without becoming complacent
Making peace with discomfort, without becoming apathetic
Making peace with the unknown, without losing touch with my deep vision of a compassion-based, connected world that works for all people.
More than ever, let’s remember to
Care for ourselves responsibly
Lighten one another’s load
Be kind to one another
And, my favorite … to look for purpose, meaning and grace in every moment.
My Wednesday morning drop-in practice group has moved to an online format – everyone is welcome.
During this time of social distances, we meet on Wednesdays via Zoom video conference.
Wednesdays April 1, 8, 15, 22, 29
10am -12noon CST Minneapolis
8am – 10am California
11am-1pm New York
If you’d like to join this Wednesday, register to join us here. Requested donation is $25, but you can pay whatever amount you wish, or simply attend for free.